You know when you’ve been doing a particular area of work for years and you start to feel its season is done, and no longer serves you?
What do you do?
Do you still stay in that area of work and push on regardless of how you feel?
Or do you make a change and move towards where you feel led?
For the past few years it’s been niggling at me to release areas of my work that were no longer serving me. I didn’t feel brave at the time to release them, but feel free in having done that now.
Having worked in the health, fitness and well-being industry for over 17 years I spent most of my time helping men, and women to lose weight, de-stress, get rid of pain, as well as have healthier, fitter, stronger bodies.
At the time I was loving what I was doing…..I was good at what I did and helped people achieve some fantastic results…..but I soon started to lose enthusiasm, and became disillusioned. I felt I was working to survive….
An area I neglected to work with people on was an area I struggled with, one which I’ve healed from, but never saw it as anything to really share…..until now…..
For those of you who don’t know I struggled with depression for almost 20 years.
I disguised it well by wearing a “mask”, but behind closed doors and inside me I was crumbling – feeling rundown, suffering with brain fog, battling suicidal thoughts and mood swings. Eventually I burnt out and it came to a time when I literally couldn’t get out of bed.
That led me on my journey to uncover why I had experienced what I experienced and the best course of healing for my mind, and body.
As I said this wasn’t something I looked to share because what I found was within the Health Fitness Industry the word “burnout” was banded around, but most of us Instructors and Trainers hoped it would never happen to us, despite us working 12+ hour days. If you felt rundown you’d prop yourself up with “energy” drinks or high sugary foods.
Within the world of Coaching, Business and Self Employment I found that because most people put on a “positive” stance – believing and speaking positively, making out that everything was good, “burnout” was one of those things that I discovered people were “secretly” suffering with “behind the scenes”, but “dominant voices” would proclaim that as Coaches, as successful Entrepreneurs, and especially one for us women – as “Queens”, “we don’t do burnout”.
So, with that I stayed silent….
But what bothered me was the number of people I communicated with, particularly women, who were heading towards burning out, who were feeling rundown, who were trying to “hold it all together” and put a positive stance on how “successful” their life and work was, but all the while struggling with their health, and well-being.
Some of these people were fearful of their clients, colleagues, even family members finding out about their struggles because they had bought into “putting on a positive stance” to cover up what was really going on for them.
This filled me with sadness because I know from experience what it’s like.
It came to me the other day, “Who am I to hide this gift and not share it with others who are going through a similar thing?
I felt humbled on receiving and hearing this.
I now feel it’s time for me to share and let those who are struggling to know it’s okay.
There’s no shame.
There’s no fear.
There’s no judgement.
There’s no more need to hide and wear a “mask”.
Moving forward in this new season I’ll be working with Women who feel rundown, burnt out or struggling with mood swings to feel healthier, happier and energised, so they can fulfil their life purpose.
It feels good!
Lillian Lartey x
PS: funny how things work out. The picture is of an old leaflet I found. I produced it back in year 2000 with the intention of running a workshop to help people be fit and healthy, so they could fulfil their purpose….